Everything is Perception?

I have always held the belief that I am afraid of public speaking.  Holding this belief it has always been my perception that I, as the speaker, am the expert.  With this perception then I had to have all the answers.  You the audience therefore, were there to learn and ultimately bathe in my wisdom.

What if, however, I don't know everything?  What if I stumble and fall?  What if you call me out?  ...And there we have the reason for mine, and many others fear of public speaking, I believe.

What would happen if I held a very different belief?  What if I choose to believe instead that I am a student of life, which by the way seems closer to the truth.  Would that change the dynamics slightly?  As a student of life I am forever learning, and therefore can't fail.  If I see myself as a student it allows me to see you and others as students too.  As students, you too perceive all opportunities as potential for growth, for sharing, for change.

How do your perceptions affect your view?

PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) Part III

So you have PTSD, now what...and can anything help?

There are numerous treatments being used for PTSD at this time quite successfully.  I will discuss a few here.  But let me say this, there are also many ways that you can take care of yourself.  There are many paths to healing, not all are the same for everyone.  The methods described here are therapeutic techniques utilized by either Psychologists (PhD), Licensed Professional Counselors (LPC), Licensed Clinical Social Workers (LCSW) or Licensed Marriage and Family Therapists (LMFT).  (For a discussion of other treatments see PTSD Part II) 


CPT (Cognitive Processing Therapy) is a structured technique that combines ideas from CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy), and Exposure Therapy to create a program specific for PTSD.  By teaching participants to use CBT principles therapists are then able to have them write and talk about their experiences in a safe environment.  The therapist continues to guide the client into further inquiry into their thoughts and beliefs with the idea that the client will be able to begin to construct new healthier ways of thinking about themselves, others, and the world around them.
Here is a link to provide you with more information about CPT.

EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing)  is another very successful treatment modality for PTSD, though different from the others discussed here.  I would put it in a similar category to Biofeedback.  It involves using a simple eye movement technique that affects or accesses different areas in the brain and enables processing of information / trauma in sometimes a very rapid way.  Unlike other treatments which ask clients to re-experience events and emotions from the past, EMDR helps the client process on a different level.
Here is a link to the EMDR Institute for more information, EMDR Institute.

CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) is a well known treatment that encompasses a lot of ideas.  On a basic level CBT's theory is that our thoughts create feelings which effect our behaviors.  Many of these thoughts are automatic and go unquestioned.  More often then not a single thought is followed by other supporting thoughts.  The techniques used in CBT teach us to approach one thought at a time and question its truth.  Through the process of questioning our thoughts we hold as truth we open ourselves to new possibilities
and new ways of thinking.
Here is a link from another good source on mental health...CBT

I do want to say a word about Rogerian or Supportive Therapy as well.  The premise is this, the Counselor simply endeavors to understand the client and how the client sees the world.  The Counselor does not try to interpret, direct or teach the client, rather they simply provide a warm and supportive atmosphere in which the client can do some self-exploration.  It may seem logical that this would be helpful to many, but as we all we sometimes like to complicate things. 

The last subject I want to touch on here is that of pharmacology, or medicine.  Medicines can sometimes play a role in recovering from PTSD, either in conjunction with other therapies or by themselves, depending on the needs of the client.  Two FDA approved medications for PTSD are Zoloft and Paxil, though there are other medications used successfully in the treatment of PTSD; Prozac, Celexa, Klonopin, Buspar, Trazedone, etc.

All these therapies have in common the idea that to heal we have to face our demons.  Mind you they do it in different ways, some more gently than others.  Avoiding, which we all learn to do so well, just embeds the pain, and causes more dysfunction on a behavioral and mental level.  When we do this we start to associate non threatening circumstances as a threat, and think of ways to not feel, to not remember the pain, fear, and anger inside, which in turn then begins to control our lives.

The good thing is the hurt is over, the bad thing is, you still carry it inside...not what are you going to do about it?

Since as of this writing I am in Denton, TX., I would like to provide a few links to organizations in the are that can be beneficial...

Friends of the Family
Denton County MHMR
Mental Health of America
Operation Healthy Reunions
US Dept of Veterans Affairs
Veterans services of Denton County
UNT Counseling and Testing Department

PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), Part II

Most people when they think of PTSD think of Veterans.  The fact is there is a wide range of people suffering from PTSD, and just as wide a range of degree of symptoms.

I suffered from PTSD due to a chronic illness I had in my twenties  I was ill for almost 8 years and came close to dying during the process.  Because I was chronically ill I developed a host of symptoms and problems.

My PTSD symptoms couldn't be categorized as debilitating.  I didn't wake up in cold sweats every night, nor did I hide under my bed during the day.  I did, however, have nightmares occasionally.  I also suffered from anxiety bordering on paranoia, and constantly felt defensive and scared.  I held beliefs such as, "I can't trust myself/others", "The world is not a safe place", and "I'm not safe".  All of this was enough to affect the quality of my life, my relationship with myself, and my relationships with others..

I took care of my physically needs first, which makes sense since my life revolved around getting well and learning about various health practices.  "Getting well" came in stages, however, like peeling an onion.  As my physical health began to improve and my body started to waken, my emotions began to come out; old unresolved issues/thoughts and beliefs began to surface.  Healing was happening.  During my illness I prayed / set the intent that I not only wanted to heal physically but on every level, though I didn't really know what that meant at the time.

This is my journey so it's not going to be the same for everyone.  I approached this process much the same way as I did my illness, with determination, bordering on obsessive-compulsive tendencies.  I continued, and continue to do things to take care of my physical needs, knowing my body, mind, and emotions are all intricately intertwined.

I eat well.  The food we eat becomes the building blocks that create our bodies and all their functions; neurotransmitters, hormones, enzymes, besides the more obvious ones.  So yes, the food we eat effects our entire person.

I find time every day to stretch / practice Yoga.  Stretching and Yoga when done mindfully help us to be more present / in the moment.  They help us release stress, increase our flexibility and oxygen intake into our muscles and organs, and increase our energy to name a few benefits.

I go to a Chiropractor every few weeks, though I don't have back problems.  Chiropractic helps the whole body.  As nerves running from the spine effect every organ and system in the body, maintaining good back health effects our overall health.  (though let me say I go to a gentle Chiropractor)

I take breaks throughout the day to take time for myself, to relax, to practice mindfulness, which as I've said helps me be more present.  This among other things has helped me to make friends with my emotions, and also challenge my thoughts and beliefs when they no longer serve me.  (I will be creating a Post called Mindfulness in the near future)

I learned these approaches during the time of my illness and healing.  There are other approaches I used in the past as well, to help me get to this place of healing.  I have been to Counseling, which not only helped me to process with someone in a safe space, but also helped me to become more comfortable with myself.  I have also utilized the services of a Hypnotherapist, an Acupuncturist, and Massage Therapists.  All of these experiences have become part of my journey and life, a tapestry if you will that continues to evolve.

What I have found is that no two people will follow the same path, though there are basic tools that I think make up the foundation for creating a healthy being.  The tools I have discussed in my own practice will be beneficial to anyone willing to spend the time on themselves.  After that, it becomes a personal experience, and each person will have to find what works / fits for them.